Alone Again, Naturally...

Everyone gives up, eventually. Everyone has thus far. Nobody helps unless there is something in it for them. You try to help with my depression but say that I take everything as a joke instead.

Wake up, kiddo, that's the only way I can live anymore. I have to think of everything as a joke or I keep thinking of throwing myself off the tallest building around. You think that time I took painkillers and alcohol was scary? You don't know the half of it.

I need help and I know that. I want help, but I need to know you'll be there to help through to the end. Everyone leaves and gives up...eventually. I wanted to know you wouldn't give up on me half way.

Guess what, you proved me wrong. You didn't give up half way! Kudos to you!!

You gave up even before anything began.

What's The Point...

Look into my eyes,

Tell me what you see.

Is it the pain of goodbyes,

Or endless worry?

I know that life isn't fair,

I know people just don't care.

You tell your story, lay your soul bare,

People would sooner glare.

Trust, I know not who nor how nor why

And, to be honest, I'd much rather sigh.

For I've had my back stabbed before

And I've seen how people can be rotten to the core.

Tell me, what's the point of it all.

To like, to love, to fall.

I'd rather not have the pain

Of living life full of disdain.

These words I cannot say,

But I'll write them down instead.

Then I'll go on my way

Still alive but feeling dead.

...

Key, please.

Valentine For Her...

Since the day we met,

I knew I should have kept my cat.

Also, I really didn’t think I’d find

Love in the form of an angel thus kind.

May this day bring you joy and romance;

Or, failing which, may we have a short dance?

Have a song or poem written;

Verily, my heart, you have smitten.

Upon my honour, I swear to thee,

Everything about you sets me free.

I am honoured to call you mine;

You, my lovely Valentine.

Let me say this and say it true,

One thing I can truly promise you;

I will love you, through joys and dismays,

Until the end of my days.

Valentine...

"Shall I compare thee to a summer's day"
Has been oft quoted in every way;
In every song and every rhyme,
Right from the beginning of time.
Let me be thus bold,
Earnestly seeking your loving hold.
You'll have to pardon me,
Lest your beauty blinds me to see;
I ask now if you would be mine,
My Valentine.

Untitled...

I had the sweetest dream the other day.

You and me, we were on our way;

A romantic evening at a matinee;

And your beauty took my breath away.

Then my phone rang.

In that instant, my heart sank.

Because I had awoken, dang!

And you were angrier than a Russian tank.

Yes, I was wrong.

I shouldn’t have gotten angry.

I should have comforted you or sang a song.

And for not doing so, I’m truly sorry.

Darling, dearest, you should know,

Even if it doesn’t show,

You mean everything to me

And moving on with you is all I can see.

It is true, my love,

By your side is where I want to be.

For better or for worse, here or in heaven up above,

Don’t scoff when I say you’re everything to me.

So please, I’m begging you,

Allow me to make amends and

Make all our plans come true,

However long it may take for us to mend.

Until the end of time,

I’ll prove I want us too.

Let me say I love you in verse and rhyme,

I love you.

One Day...

As I sat here surrounded by the dead,

I ponder over all the things that's been said

I've been here for twelve hours straight

Contemplating my fate

I realise now just how alone I am.

Nobody, dead or alive cares.

I am one

Amid life's glares.

Honestly, I don't know what love is anymore,

Everything I thought it was before,

It's gone now, right out the door,

Lord knows what's left in store.

So I decided to escape for a while,

To visit her grave for a day.

Maybe bring back some happy memories and a smile,

Thinking of how perfect we were in every way.

Here's a letter to her, if you don't mind.

Darling, you were patient, lovely, kind

Words fail to do justice for you,

An angel who loved me true.

As I sit here by your side,

I'm reminded of your virtues of grace.

You were never sarcastic nor snide,

You knew what to say to help me save face.

Now there's someone new,

Tell me what I should do.

She makes me happy when I frown,

But when we were together, you never let me down.

Ever since you left that fateful night,

I haven't been able to talk nor think right.
I am constantly drowning and I know not why

And around me, everyone feigns pity without blinking an eye.

Give me a sign that you sent her for me;

Give me a sign that I can be happy;

For almost a decade now, set me free,

Or am I to be condemned a decade more in this purgatory?