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What can I say that hasn't been said before?
What can I do that hasn't yet been done?
What can I write that nobody will find a bore?
How can I prove that my love for you shines like the sun?

Perhaps I've never shown you enough care.
Perhaps I've never shown you enough appreciation.
Perhaps I was nowhere when you needed me there.
Please, give me a chance to redeem myself from this perdition.

Because of three words,
Because I believe you feel it too,
Because of how we braved swords,
I love you.

I know you're scared,
I know you're not ready to trust again,
I know you're tired,
But, one thing I know, my love for you will never wane.

So, take your time.
And as much of it as you need.
But when you're ready, give me a sign.
So that we can ride into endless sunsets on a white steed.

Beginnings...

I want you to know,
Lessons I've learned aplenty in this life. 
Of how I've been blind and made you suffer so.
Verily, I've had your heart over a knife,
Even when you were hurting, never did you show.
Yesterday, I thought of words to say.
Of how to describe you in a beautiful way, 
Unlike methods of Shakespeare or Thomas Gray.
...but, yet, I fear you won't accept me today.
Don't give up on us, please.
Every time I think of losing you, my heart hurts,
And I know I can't bear to lose you like this.
Rest assured, my dear for "I love you" aren't just only words.

A Story...

What am I, if not only human?
Am I not allowed to have flaws?
Or are you perfect beyond reason,
That your words have become my laws?

I help others, not expecting anything.
Yet I am insulted and cast aside,
By the very people I am helping.
But, I just take it in my stride.

What can I do to please you, father?
To you, I'm just a damn failure, aren't I?
I am sorry, I've let you down, mother.
For while I lived, all you could do was sigh.

Could you fulfill my last wish, dear sir?
If you should see my true love,
Please tell her.
That I'll watch and wait for her in the sky above.

Lights go out and I am on my way,
To face judgment and to pay.
For all my past sins and so, in hell shall I stay.
I'm sorry, I can't stay any longer...I died today.
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Lucifer has seen me already.
Good news dear, I can be with you now.
For he damned me to roam for eternity.
So, I'll spend my days with you just like we knew how.

I sit and wait for her outside her home today.
People looked in my direction, but stared right through.
Then she came and saw me, not knowing what to say.
She was scared and that filled my heart with rue.

We tried to hug each other, but she passed through me.
Upon this, her eyes widen with both our fears.
It was like she couldn't touch me, but only see.
This made both our eyes well up with tears.

So, I'll let you go,
Let you have your happiness.
For it saddens me to see you suffer so.
I'll just keep wandering in loneliness.
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Time has passed and has relieved her of the past pain.
Now, she has a family of her own.
A husband who loves her with love that will never wane.
I am there, keeping her company, so that she's never alone.

Though age has claimed part of her beauty,
She looks just as radiant as the day we met.
And now, as she lays on a hospital bed, smiling sweetly.
She tries to comfort her children but her eyes were, oh so sad.
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Now I see the light,
It welcomes me with its alluring charms.
But I am still bounded by this weight,
By chains that Lucifer has tied around my arms.

So I'll bid you farewell, my dear.
Know that I did as I promised.
I took care of you, and warded off your fears.
But now, you've gone and you'll be missed.

I now roam the earth in solitude and in despair.
Hoping to spend another lifetime with someone like you.
But never will I find anyone as fair.
Nor will I find love that's true...

Lethargy...

How many wishes are we allowed in this life?

If we could wish for time and wisdom,

Would there be wars and strife?

Or would we begin to embrace peace and freedom?

If men could see past their own pride,

Would we suffer this plight?

When we choose to fight for a side,

Would we still feel the same delight?

Someone once asked me, if love exists.

Guess what I told him, if you can.

Because towards love, we can't resist.

So, I told him if he found it, he should learn to bend.

To give and so you should receive.

For love works in mysterious ways.

So, have a clear heart and never deceive.

Then, and only then will you face happy days.

These days, I'm just wandering down an endless road.

One that has no end in sight nor resting place.

And every passing day, adds to my burdening load.

But I don't mind the weight, if just to be charmed by your grace.

Alas, those days are now my past.

How I wish to relive it over again.

And perhaps, just perhaps, make them last.

But all I can do is cry, in solitude, in pain...in this rain.

I long to say that I'm tired and cease to live.

But that would be admitting I'm a coward.

So I suffer, just as I did the day you chose to leave.

And try, in vain, to move forward.

In reality, we live in a cold, bleak world.

Its people would kill just to get ahead.

Also, in love and war, all is fair to get that ideal girl.

So, I'll just wait for the day that I lay dead.

Because of others' disdain,

I'm forced to accept the pain,

And keep quiet or be slain.

So, I'll just continue walking in the rain.