The Letter...

Pardon me, I'm lost and need a listener.

Someone who can listen to me without judging.

You see, I have to send my girl this letter.

But, I don't know if I still got her loving.

I've let her down, I fear.

She's always loved me and held me dear.

Yet, I couldn't do anything to stop her leavin',

Leaving me with a heart a-breakin'.

For a while, I couldn't breathe.

It was like my world came crashing down.

I was numbed by pain and writhe,

No sound came, and I wore a frown.

I should have stopped her from leaving.

I should have treated her better before she left.

I was blind, not knowing she was suffering.

Perhaps she's better off now, without worry of death.

I wonder how she is now, if she's alright.

I'd tell her I'm fine.

If only I could see her tonight,

I'd hug her tight, kiss her and make her mine.

Though I try to move on, with another.

Somehow, the emptiness remains.

The closeness we had once, now grown further.

And now I'm left with this pain and tear stains.

She looks rather like her, the eyes especially.

She has her laugh, her smile, her scent.

I try to move on, but I don't know if I'll be hers entirely.

Tell me what Love is, should it hurt to this extent?

I've been so lonely for so long, and now she's in my life.

To mend my broken heart and accompany me.

Though I know not of the future or if she will be my wife,

I can only hope that forever in love we will be.

I feel so guilty trying to forget her.

Sigh, I don't know what to do.

Yet, I can't live without the other.

I am kept awake by rue.

You see, I've written a letter for my girl.

To ask for her to forgive me, in case she hasn't.

To tell her I love another girl.

But I can't seem to find the postbox to heaven.

Farewell...

Grey streaked skies;

Sadness lined with pain.

Hidden by masks and lies,

Covering up every tear stain.

Handshakes all 'round,

Tears flowed freely towards ground.

As we hugged each other farewell without a sound,

And hoped each had a brighter future to be found.

She seemed happy today...

I'm glad to see she's moved on.

Perhaps a very long time from now, I'll say.

That my pain has fully gone.

But for now, I'll have to carry this broken heart.

With nowhere to seek asylum,

I don't know where to start.

To heal my pain from becoming numb...

I hope she finds happiness, wherever she may be.

I hope he treats her right.

I hope she doesn't remember me,

All the times we had and I hope he keeps her warm at night.

I'm sorry that I couldn't do more.

I'm sorry you had to suffer when you were with me.

I'm sorry, all I can do now is adore,

You from across this painful sea.

Perhaps I'll learn to forget you in time.

But my heart will never feel the same,

For anyone else, because you have tamed me.

And you alone are worth more to me than fame.

Farewell, my Valentine.

I've resorted to this wandering life of mine,

For I can't forget you and how you looked divine.

He is lucky to have you, a wife so fine.

Rain accompanies me,

As I cry for a love lost.

A strike of lightning may set me free,

Because death is the only price for love and I'll bear that cost...

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The Script has got a few songs that really fit my mood lately...coincidence?

Sigh...

I am resigned to my fate.

Lord, do with me as you please.

For I have suffered at your mercy, of late.

So, end it all already and grant me release.

I haven't been able to sleep lately.

Perhaps these nightmares are getting worse.

Or is it because I miss her so madly,

That I have been damned with this curse?

Let's face it, I've had happier days.

We've held hands and more than that.

But these days, I find myself counting the ways,

To letting you go; so you won't be sad.

I love her, truly.

She's perfect, to me.

Yet, no matter how I love her deeply,

Fate has decided that we're never to be...

If I let her go now,

She may still be able to find happiness.

Although I may never love again; never know how.

In my heart she will stay and I will live in sadness.

Sigh, you'd be better off with someone who can give you more.

Though I really don't want to do this,

I have no choice, but to admire you from the shore.

As you journey with him to eternal bliss...

Maybes And Chances Gone By...

Ink smear as tears drip onto paper,
Leaving behind opportunities that would've been.
Casually discarding it into a shredder,
Removing all trace, preventing it from being seen...

Gone are the days when we would watch the sun rise.
Oh, how I long for them to return.
For me to be there sitting by your side in paradise,
And watch Nero play the fiddle while Rome would burn.

But, alas, only empty memories remain...
Of fires and treacherous rains.
Oh, we braved them all and fought the pain.
Now, we're over the ruins and pioneering plains.

Sometimes, in darkness, I cry myself to sleep.
Memories play in my head, of us...
I guess, our memories together are all I have left to keep.
Perhaps, perhaps...I'll paint them in every verse.

Rain's tapping on my window pane,
Telling me that heaven's cries will heal my pain.
So, I took a long walk in the heavy rain,
Hoping that it carries my tears to a nearby drain...